ENTRY : gong xi-

27th - friday
met at cityhall to fareast plaza with shirleen after school (: last minute cny shopping. bought the 'blingblings' with her haha. saw some vaguely familiar faces there. then we rushed to bugis to take prints tgt ! it turned out funnily weird lol. then met my mum to go home. anyhow, so sorry hunns. i didn't find u tht day :\ slept awhile before heading to chinatown with parents ahahs. at early midnyte ! there was still a crowd though.

28th - saturday
cindy msged me in the morning (x we went to town again hah. bought our accessories tgt yay. walked nd laughed all the tym. then back to bugis too. met into charlene nd denise haha. they told us most of the shops were closed alrd ! gosh. but we went to bugis street instead ahah. then ran home for reunion steamboat dinner :DD how yummy. abalone nd all hehh.

29th - sunday
first day of cny. not enough time ; little angbaos ! sheesh. there was a dispute between mum nd some relative anyway. we were sort of unwelcomed so we skipped the place. cousin was with us to go visiting nd so it was not right actually, for her. as they say : only a year after the death then allowed. urghs.

30th - monday
secondy day of cny. went for reunion lunch at the restuarant. nyce food yum yumms ! then i had to leave before dessert to train down to cindy's house to 'bai nian' (: her family's very friendly ! quite an experience anyway. had to leave early for my movie though. sadly, my mum called to say it ended when i just stepped into the cinema lahh ? was effing pissed since i ran all the way from cityhall to suntec (esp on heels) lols. we had prata for dinner after that. oh yes, aunty cindy's at australia ): she wasn't with her family when we visited haha. but we saw her on webcam ! nd timothy was with her. he's cute still ahahs. another aunt's danny boy changed too. he's now a big boy ! with charms of a potential beng. ehehehhehs xDD

31st - tuesday
nothing much ! sac band performance at istana is NEWS man. ahah. we took pictures with mr president too (: nd ernestine's so funny with her 'nathan owing her prata' ! lols. played a few pieces there. by the tym i got home, it was alrd 8pm ! no collecting of red packets today. oh wells :\ chatted online nd here i am updating again. tmr's bck to school. HAHA.

ENTRY : take me to the candyy shopp.

omg. u should go take a look at geraldine's blog entry ! it was hilarious. i still can recall how joanne told us about it ahahs.

it's like everyone's telling me "i like your specs ". so woahh. but maybe i don't really look nyce wearing them on LOL.

cindy is mad about cny ! she keeps thinking of it haha. i'm worrying about my wardrobe etc so most prolly i'm out tmr after school to do the last-minute's. i need a fringey trim too ! hehh. anyway, went to syy's house with jaslyn after cca today. was effing late alrd pls ! reached home at 2230 hahaha. we ate home-made abacus there, did some homeworks nd went crazyy laughing nd all ! then her mum chased us out :X wahahs.

almost got locked out of the house when i came back. stupid bell. okay now i'm back to more homeworks which are all due tmr ! one of the frustrating moments in life.

ilhoney x) many more.

ENTRY : ilu is it okay ?

SEVEN random facts about you:
1. I wear purple specs (:
2. I am always in a daze.
3. I eat my burgers neat.
4. I peel my burgers till they go 'botak'.
5. I hate stares nd looks from people.
6. I can be REALLY quiet nd loner.
7. I often keep everything to myself.

SEVEN things that make me smile:
1. To love nd to be loved.
2. When I have kachinks !
3. When I have friends by my side (:
4. When I get something I like.
5. When there isn't any homework or tests.
6. When I do well for studies.
7. When I lose some weight AHAH. pls ?

SEVEN ways to win my heart:
1. treasure me for who I am.
2. never flirt with other girls !
3. surprise me all the tym x) esp when I'm down.
4. have money ; the kachinks LOL.
5. always be there to make me happy nd smile.
6. a fun person who can make me laugh too.
7. have trust in me nd respect.

SEVEN things I'm afraid of that are just BLAH:
1. People who critisize me.
2. Loneliness.
3. Insecurity.
4. Insects.
5. Mud nd grass.
6. Ghost ?
7. Death.

SEVEN things I do everyday:
1. Go sleep.
2. Wake up early.
3. Talk nd talk.
4. Eat nd eat.
5. Be deep in thoughts.
6. Sms people.
7. Yawn nd stretch.

okays. bought a levi's top nd esprit deodorant (lol) during the weekend shopping out at town with family x) ytd as well as today are pretty bad, hectic in school of course. what's with CNY ? i'm still stuck with CAMP mood with the rest ahahs. remember the 'FEVER' gang alryte cindy ! nd we've still got a long way of friendship to last ya ? ((:

hmmm. got to go get my stuff now. tatas.
_nd this love. it's contradicting. tell me what to do ? i'm lost myself.

ENTRY : tears of a paper heart-

awaken by mum in the morning to draw stupid toilet features. sheesh. went out with family to suntec nd caught the movie 'memoirs of a geisha'. superr ! hees. then dined at sakae's with mum, sister, cousin, brother nd his gf nd a guyfriend. it felt somehowweird hahas. ate alot pls, even had green tea ice-cream :X OH my sister nd i realised that brother's gf is hairy LOL. omg i feel so mean to say that. but nvm now. still, i noticed too, that she's slightly taller nd skinnier than me ! i feel inferior urghs :Z i'm so fugly nd fat. ltr went shopping tgt. bought new school shoes alrd ((: so i need not worry for monday heh ! cousin nd brother bought levi's. then had drink from coffeebean before heading home.

my homeworks are left lying on the table awaiting to be done ah. i feel lazy though haha. hunns is studying till now ! makes me feel bad. i shall do it today in the late nyte since im not sleepy yet then [: lols. *i need motivation.

ENTRY : camp corri 06

day 1
was going to be late to school on wednesday morning so i took a cab from bedok inter nd wasted my money. jaslyn couldn't come last minute because she was sick from vomitting ! my poor mummy ): then we were given class item : a bulky ring LOL. i only got to choose this black&white one urghs. our group is 'FORTE' ha ! there's noorain, chantel, beefy, me, angela, sam kee, carmen, sam chung, xue er, delvinder, tiffany, alena, xing ern nd yunling.

reached bukit batok campsite. the place is effing bad pls. the toilet is a long 5-10min winding walk from our tents. where is the easy accessibility ! the food was okay though the rice was hard. we didn't win much money from games so had little food to 'buy' for dinner. the f bastard was so unreasonable too ! yes he pissed us all till our appetites were almost gone. then it started to rain after the activities. unlucky as we are already, our group tent is the furthest from our class, at the muddiest spot ! so irky. jan tried to piggyback me to the pathway but to no avail >:( haha. i had to walk out of the mud myself. bathed in toilets with terrible condition (we were last batch) my first tym washing hair in the sink. gosh. before sleeping, checked my hfone. honey msged nd called ): but wrong timing lol. then chatted with girlfriend in the late hours ahah.

day 2
woke up early nd prepared washing up at the VERY FAR toilet. today we 'proved our maturity, took risk nd challenges' ((: instructor stephanie was proud of us heh. there was this game 'hard cold numbers' which we had first thing in the morning. filled ice nd water in basins to put our feets in. it was effing painful ! we were crying lahh. our feets were totally numb with lyk veins popping out ! so super sadistic. end of it all, we earned lots, nd bought maximum number of bombbags for the 'riots' game. 5 of us stupidly went into the bathroom to hide nd got attacked. i was the wettest in my group after it all ended lol. campfire in the nyte was pretty good. interesting nd funny ! we sang our class cheers tgt nd all. sadly, we missed the best part of it. sighs. oh but we witnessed a few girls who unintendedly went into the male toilet when a guy instructor was peeing. poor fella. HAHA didn't change tents to sleep with others after that, we were all tired out.

day 3
woke up 15mins before 7am ! ahah we were all rushing with stuff. instructor kept thinking i have a twin ! :X she's funnily weird. she's nyce nd smart though. had some talks etc. we packed up the tents, cleaned the dirtied toilets nd activity areas. was embarrassing :Z jan laughed at me ! so mean ryte. then it was goodbye to them nd off we go. away with soiled towel, muddy shoes, toothbrush nd disposable cups. haha ! geraldine, jaslyn, cindy nd i went to cavanas for lunch. cindy nd i went to tamp too (: we had ice cream nd walkabouts. urhm with my BIG bags lahh (hers is super small lyk going shopping ? lyk they said) i'm home alrd. tired. nd yet i'm very glad okay. i appreciate everything now ! especially friends nd you.

okay i'll have long baths nd good food from now on :DD great.
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPER KURT ! from nutty x)

ENTRY : black is not over.

tiring long day at school. legion meeting was rushed through (where's my gift! haha). ms tan didn't check on us anyway. urghs wasted tym only. nd then off to tamp with girlfriend ((:

we bought this black bottle nd earring star studs tgt ! haha so cool. i saw my black PONY bag at royal sporting house ! gosh, too ex ): so effing saddening. i shall consider it next tym instead. went to Za too x) cindy's funny lahh, nd she visits the toilet many tyms. laughed so much with her pls :\ the annoying thing was ppl that stare at u for no particular reason ! ryte cindy ? ahahahs.

cindy : u're so punkish. (turning back while talking..) eeeyer
guy from the group of them : (look at cindy nd me) -eye contact
cindy nd me : =\ (urhm.) HAHAHAHAH ! (burst out laughing so long)
guys : (talking nd looking at us from the escalator down) HAHAHHAH !
// what the hell ? lols.

okay i better go off now to do my packing nd homeworks then. tatas.
P.s i love my honey alrytes =)

ENTRY : please take me away.

went to compass point with geraldine nd jaslyn. bought some of the camp stuffs needed. haha nd OMG i almost lost my wallet there. lucky it was picked up by bk's crew ahahs. if not for them, i would just die pls. went to my optical shop then ordered my contact lenses too :X its 25 for just a monthly-pair sheesh. (nd yes a random fact : i wear specs hee)

pchem mcq test - 8/10 (so f it was carelessness !)
amath 'old' test - 4/23 (sighs)
stupid cindy x) i'm embarrassed pls don't say in your blog.

CAMP. urghs. fugly purple specs nd sleeping in tents. :IN BUKIT BATOK ! why of all places.
should i bring my hfone along ?

some things are better not told.
even to the closest of the closest friend.
- i shunt away so easily, not wanting to face the truth.

these feelings. i want to hold on to.

ENTRY : rantings.

syy treated me to yummy korean cuisine today [: it was f nyce lahh ! especially the bi bim bap set. then we walked around the whole place nd landed at macs to teach me some amath stuff which i missed out during lesson. OH. we saw catherine at the interchange with her lil brother ! ahahah she looked so different now. shirleen where are you ! i missed you girl. maybe she didn't miss me hahah.

i'm effing sad. confused. freaked out. angry. empty. doubtful. worried. hi black. let my day be brighter tmr ! well, at least a grey okay ? hmm.

SYY
thanks bestie ((: for listening to all those dumb stuff. so retarhded i know. anyway, the food were great ! we should eat korean cuisine more often haha.

TRITON
honey (x must take care okay. must smile more ! don't be so sad. u better have more rest nd sleep early. because i care too !

JON
thanks for the chocolates (: nd there was another box. but you know, seriously. i can't accept the other gift okay ? its too much nd urhm, ya. sorry i will return it to you. please take it back.

ENTRY : yummy dolls house

went to see st pats POP today in the evening with chokky nd her friend. met the others there too. the two were there. it'll just be an admiration from afar.it was quite interesting actually ! the intermediate band played well ((: then left for tiongbahruplaza because i just felt like shopping nd wandering around :X bummer. i spent my money on a pair of denim shorts. sheesh.

i'm supposed to go church in the morning but i'm lazy. i'm having trouble with my wardrobe anyway. sighs. syy says she's gonna treat me to korean food tmr after class ! yum yums [: i AM a pig (so is triton) hahahs. okay i'm f bored now.

what i look for in a guy :
1) sunshine boy (oh well no more punks i guess)
2) age between 16-18
3) height between 164-170cm
4) effing cute ! quite handsome ; with charming smile :D
5) sinfully sweet
6) thoughtful nd loving
7) doesn't use force (means respect is needed)
8) remembers special days !
9) when i'm alone or bored, he must be free for me anytym :10) bring me out to nyce places ((:
11) pays for my share haha
12) shower me with gifts. lalas.
13) share our problems tgt
14) nd so huggable hurhur
15) never fails to make me SMILE
16) goes through with me thick nd thin no matter what
17) knows me well i guess
18) plays nd studies with me ! hehh
19) not too close to girl friends HAHA ; no flirt pls
20) love me for who i am <3 * P.s it can never be true. i'll never find one just lyk that LOL.

even so, cindy nd i always agree we can't find our partners tgt ! gosh haha. she says it's because we always tend to eye for the same person. funny eh ? we have a secret we share. silly girlfriend haha.

OH. i had a weird dream last nyte ! like i was supposed to meet him at a bus-stop. then i alighted opposite, nd told him to wait there while i'd walk over. he saw me nd when i reached, he was gone x( i was upsetted nd angry. so mean ryte ! ahahs. nevermind that, i'm missing honey x)

- "hold the star nd don't lose it"

ENTRY : one last-

today's friday 13th; unlucky. sums up the day ahahs. it started out pretty bad with my uncle reprimanding me over nothing big a matter. sheesh. guess he's still drunk or something. school's back to a sunny warm weather again ! oh nd, i realised how funny tchers can be ! ahahs. ryte shir ?

it could get kind of agitating when people tend to ask (up to now) questions like "is it real ?" "real or fake ?" as if i'd have fakes nd not mind lahh. gosh. i mean, do you think imitation guess or burberry would be cool nd appeal to me ? yucks pls.

i was given ground rules :
1) must concentrate on studies
2) not to bottle up things to myself
3) NATALIE NEEDS TO GET REGULAR SLEEP :
update more ltr.

ENTRY : my last dance.

back to amath tuition nd church mass on sunday :\ it was pouring heavily nd i was drenched many tyms. after which we went to eastpoint for lunch nd then off to meet my mum nd sis. went back pasir ris to see the under-renovation house. it's only ready around mid-february ! damn effing sad pls >:(

on monday. sec4s nd 5s had spot-checks by the principal as well as other discipline tchers. ahah. i was lucky not to be caught for my hair colour ((: yayy. jaslyn nd others weren't in luck though. they checked for coloured sportsbra, attire nd nametags too ! except for bags, how silly.

tuesday's hari raya haji [: yumyums. theDIRECTIONS (except beefy nd joanne) went for sakae lunch at citylink then to town ! sadly there wasn't the buffet price on public hols. then jaslyn bought me a beach ball ahah ! it's transparent with pink 'voodoodolls' wordings. we walked around nd saw many prettaye stuffs too hehh. evening by then, went to meet up with family (: bought a top nd skirt xDD stupid brother got his FCUK bag ! urgh -envy. then dinner at wisma nd arcade. waited for dad to fetch us home from the pub lols. home late.

i could actually wake up early today sheesh. but i was freaking tired in school by noon :\ hahas. ate with jaslyn mummy before i sent her off nd went home myself by train. the train rides at different direction. HAH. now's panicky tym ! i haven't done my homeworks for tmr yet.


TRITON :

hellos my friendfriend (youPIG) ! thanks for everything ((: especially that analogy thing. it's effing sweet i like it ahahs. do you like the background ? lols. a book is impt, so is a cellfone. please be happy always ! don't be so down nd keep thinking about all those stuff ya. you're still young nd have a long way ! hah. misses okay ? x) take care.

nd i'm trapped; writes:
everyday i face books. in school nd at home. i dream of books too. i read books with deep thots till i get hold of it. books are expensive nd of good use. i learn from books. (haha)
a frenfren will always be a frenfren and nothing else... says:
everyday i see my cellphone, hold cellphone tight as i sleep,eat and play.. never want to let cellphone go until the day i die. cellphone talks to me when i need help by getting ppl on the line with me. cellphone is expensive and of fantastic use. cellphone will never ever be replace by anyone or anything... no matter waht happens (=

"smile, u'll not know but someone might be charmed by it" -saranghaeyo BANANA friend ^^

P.s do you want flowers ? HAHA.

SHIRLEEN :

; shirleen. // says:
hey dear. thanks for your lil' note in my notebook! (: i feell so much happier now! theres alot of homework to be done. you should go do it noww!! =) and watch the 9pm show now. its nice.=DD love you!

heyhey. i promised to read your blog nd i will okay. i'll shall see you in school tmr girl. loves !

ENTRY : its so f retarhded !

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
wats so funny jackass
x - natalie. <3 says:
nths funny jackbutt
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
might as well u say jillbutt
x - natalie. <3 says:
haha so u want to be jill nd not jack ?
x - natalie. <3 says:
u gay !

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
bark for me
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
haha!
x - natalie. <3 says:
(okay) FCUK !! FCUK !!
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
HAHAHA

// what the hell man ? today is so crazyy. sheesh. just bored.

ENTRY : the ghost of you.

one week of school is finally over :\ i now have many homeworks to rush through in the weekend. nd there'd be Amath test on monday alrd. had height&weight during Pe. i didn't lose much weight nd i didn't grow taller. so effing sad ):

the chinese tcher is f lousy. she doesn't care about our learning, pushing everything to be handled by the new HOD. she didn't even reprimand people who sleep in class ? i don't think i will be able to get back my A2 with this.

went to tiongbahruplaza after school to get some stuff. helped jaslyn buy her chinese books nd i bought some files nd pens. then i remembered legion's xmas exchange ! haha so difficult to choose what to buy nd give as anonymous. it had to be budget between 5-10 bucks. but in the end, alena still guessed correctly :X said my "handwriting was too neat". got her this ruby gloom stuff since i thot her emily wallet was kind of old alrd. nd yayy she likes it. so where's MY gift from MY anonymous ? haha. by the tym i went home, was alrd late at 2110.

there was sec1 orientation ytd afternoon till 1730. omg ! joanna came back nd she was super demure, slim nd pretty lahh. haha the envys. after that, went to bugis with jaslyn ((: we just walked around nd all. supposed to blog ytd, but was too tired alrd.

PS. cindy is a meanie. she laughs at people all the tym. HAH.
nd from next week onwards, i'm going to eat only one meal per day ((: think i can do it ? hehh. it takes lots of peserverance. we'll see how it goes then !

ENTRY : back to school.

back to school ! omg the f train ride to school was super boring pls :\ u can never imagine ? then met the others at school. syy helped me with my badge ! woohoo. ahah. i'm so very happy to see my friends again ((: yumyum. i love my bagbag too hurr.

talk about school nd lessons. i'm feeling the stress alrd ! all those talks by the tchers of different subjects. nd i'm sitting with betilda this year. my gosh a prefect with me :\ well, at least i got to continue my position of 'PC welfare monitress' hehh. ms lim was talking about how aids have been on high rates in africa when she went to visit the country.

(so then) cindy : i wonder how they know how to have sex.
me : (look at cindy) haha !
(having heard the conversation, ayyn turned back nd whispered) noorain : maybe the male asked "hmm i wonder which hole it is ?" haha.
cindy nd i : HAHAHAHA (burst out laughing)
(omg) ms lim : yes noorain, do you have anything to share ?

then skipped legion meeting to go studying with agnes, cindy nd geraldine at macs. but forgetful me, i left my whole pile of homeworks under my table in the freaking classroom ! urh. so we only ate nd chatted there. guess who i met avoided. that moron.

so went home by train with agnes. she left stops earlier than me hahah. sheesh. so i had to spend the rest of the ride stoning away. nd this stupid old man nd old woman sitting beside me on both sides disgusted me :X seriously. that old dude almost leaned so f close nd the old mama was digging her nose eh ? oh myy, grotesque please !

ENTRY : eyecandies-

to think of such a title for this entry, really. was thinking about my lovelife ( whatever ) nd a friend was asking me about it too. i have many eyecandies. just too many that it becomes confusing. nd the past was just regretful. but i'd focus on being straight alrd. that i'm glad to know ? hahah.

supposed to go to ophelia's birthday party but i couldn't. was late for it alrd anyway :\ went out to st bernedette's church, then to IMM with family to settle some stuff. all the while have been chatting online nd urh. msging with triton. lol he's funny lahh. oh wells, can't wait to get back to school nd see my lovelies ! just a day more ; i miss them so.

i need to do my homeworks tmr alrd. BAHHH. nd i have made a list for my new year's resolution nd part of my shopaholic list hehh. take a peep ? wait i go get it.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION :

I'd start school with a smile ((:
TRY NOT to be late for school.
Be nyce to people. rarhh.
Do all HOMEWORKS !
Seriously. go on a DIET.
Must save money daily *IMPT.
Keep in touch with girlfriends :DD
Do lots of running nd exercises.
FOCUS in studies.
Plan my tym wisely.
Don't be so mean HAHA ! :X
Get all prepared pretty on grad nyte !
( & then go boy-hunt. who am i kidding LOL )

ENTRY : changes.

officially year 2006 HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ((:

so f pls. i'm stuck at home rotting while others were out to countdown nd all. this is a saddening experience of a lousy start of new year. i can hear the loud sounds of fireworks nd people cheering.

went to take a look at our under-construction house in the morning. sister nd i were fooling around as usual ahahs. supposed to get my converse shoes, but it was out of stock till wednesday. headed to town. people were spraying the foam nd party stuff everywhere lols. a crowded tym. then bought my bag just now at OG with sister. it's f nyce lahh ! hurrs. i lovelove my yummy NIKE sling. hehh.

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i saw her.
the girl seems happy as always.
they looked a lovely couple.
why do i not have the courage to even say a simple 'HI' or smile ?
we were just 2 f distant steps i tell you ):
am missing the old tyms when school used to be interesting
aye shirleen ? hahahs.
forget it. those past.

i'll wait for the entry that you're gonna dedicate to me poohie !
should have sneaked to your house mann. HAHA.
i'm abit pissed over some matters for now. sighs.
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